FUCKING neat experience last night with a partner. Tried asphyxiation with a leather belt for the first time. 8/10 would recommend if you are into bdsm. Feels awesome on both a pain and submissive scale. First partner I’ve had really willing to be the dom. Fucking neat.
Down side being, I definitely got a black eye.
2013 has had some quality unsent nudes. I never delete them, not because I want to send them to anybody at any point, but because damn doe. Moment of self satisfaction. Big gulps.
I told my roommate he has to put in his 30 days notice the other day. It took so much courage. Now he and his girlfriend have both their computers taking up all the kitchen and are playing christmas music. There is so much screaming on the inside.
I am really struggling to live in the real world lately.
Part of me wants to live sustainably by making art and live alone in someplace high up and cold and the other part wants to give up all my sense of possession/ownership and live in an anarchist community that doesn’t exist.
It’s getting really difficult to leave the house and not be overwhelmed with anxiety and frustration. I can’t stand the real world anymore. I don’t know how people go their whole lives without a real fucking thought towards living in a world without money and thriving off community and mutual love for one another.
Extenuating circumstances have kept me from reflecting the last few weeks and now all the feels are coming at once. Motherfucker.